Friday, May 13, 2005

the fairy tale

There was a girl who thought that she was ugly and unwanted. So she kept everything to herself, and tried her hardest just to please everyone. But there were times when she wanted to be heard but deaf ears listened. Somehow she taught herself on how to be take notice of, she built a weapon inside her that withstood insults and hurts. She created a wall between herself and the world. Being preoccupied with herself and her yearning for her conquest of self-affirmation, she seek a partner that could help fulfill her dreams.

In one of her lonely days, she saw a boy, who was all knowing, handsome and popular. She thought, this would be the person who could help me achieve my dreams; we would grow and love together. We will be indestructible. We may not rein the universe, but our compatibility is without question, one of the best in the world.

The girl, armed with determination, pursued the boy. The boy was at first nonchalant since he expected that some things should remain platonic. Slowly and quite surely, the boy fell in love with the girl. The girl asked, “would you cross the bridge with me,” the guy answered “yes!” and so they crossed over.

Years have passed since the boy and girl fought for the same fight. They believed in justice and freedom. They headed for the streets, maybe romanticized that the world needs them for their love is affixed in fighting with the masses.

The girl grew tired of this, and decided that there is more to life than this. The guy remained. Their differences have now been revealed.

They constantly fought about this, since the girl seek security and comfort whereas the boy wanted to earn respect on what he is doing.

There was without doubt that they both love each other.

The fights still came, the bitterness and the tears.

He stayed, she withdrew more and more.

And then she asked herself, what have become of my dream? She thought that the other side of the bridge is much peaceful and normal.

She asked more, “When would the fairy tale start?”

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Summer in a third world country

Others suppose that the day approaches
with more zeal and memories,

But some, mass of those who lives
the mid of the world’s half would not
fairly take in that the season of sun

and fun
is looming.

Tutus and piano keys
For those in the core,
And the countryside or
the west for those who are finer of the center.

Tanning is not a choice,
it is quite vital…
as of those who lives without bullions
would dwell in days of toil ,
rewards would not be in silver or gold,
but copper and if lucky.
Land hovered by harvest,
far-off of those not ours
benefits.

Days do not alter in these lands,
A minute passes with less hope
but more to live;
somehow forgetting what summer is.

Personality Disorder Test Result



Test Note: Read the descriptions below to avoid misinterpreting test results (for example, the Antisocial classification does not mean you are a loner, it means you tend to be insensitive towards others).


General Note: the validity and reliability of DSM personality disorders are still lacking in strong statistical evidence and clear agreement in the scientific and medical community. They are determined by the American Psychiatric Association and will likely be revised in the future.
Author Note:I don't think Schizoid personality is a valid disorder (read), some of the smartest people in history were schizoid because they occupied a remote end of the intelligence bell curve. Schizotypal personality can encompass highly original thinkers as well as totally insane people so I think it's a flawed type. I think the remaining eight disorders are generally valid.


Disorder Info

Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, Schizotypal

Individuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.


Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.


Dramatic Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, and Narcissistic

Individuals with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions, distorted self-perception, and/or behavioral impulsiveness.

Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.

Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.

Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.


Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-Compulsive

Individuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.

Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticism

Dependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.

Monday, May 09, 2005

let me go

READ: the highlighted portion of this song are the words that are currently significant to my life.


Let Me Go
3 Doors Down

One more kiss could be the best thing
But one more lie could be the worst
And all these thoughts are never resting
And you're not something I deserve
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me


[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Let me go
I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through
In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me


[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
You love me but you don't know who I am
So let me go
Just Let me goo...
Let me go
And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows


[Chorus]
You love me but you don't know who I am
I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand
And you love me but you don't know Who I am
So let me go
Just let me go
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know who I am
And you love me but you don't
You love me but you don't
You love me but you don't know me

Tuesday, May 03, 2005

tick, tock

Tick, tock goes the hickory dickory clock and off I go to one of the surprises and challenges in my once idiosyncratic and pathetic life. Yeah baby!

1. Im off to law school this June, im hoping to AT LEAST pass first year and then off I go to the dream in the world of jurisprudence and appeals in law courts. Hah! But on second thought, I have to go through enrollment first since Beda claims to have a manual system.

2.Im off to Puerto galera with book nerdies, haha! Im off to neverland and this I may say armed with a canon camera is an opportune moment to photograph (if possible) total strangers. Don’t want to photo landscapes… a friend told me, i take picture like a kid, sigh. gotta learn!

3. Getting married, my brother and cousin that is! Hmmm, im off to visayas and Mindanao this summer, yahoo! That would be two weddings and a reunion; I hope there won’t be any funerals.

4. Im happy! Wow, it has been a while since I felt this way! I’m skipping again on the yellow brick and will be off to the emerald city, on second thought I want to be in neverland, never to grow up, and just be like this… smile in dark, you’ll see my teeth glow!

Friday, April 29, 2005

etc

i saw several friendster accounts of my high school schoolmates. others change, others are still the same, honestly i don't know where i belong in that section. some are succesful, some are mothers, some are wives...at least i know where i stand in this part, haha!

sometimes i envy them, because it seems that they are having the time of thier lives whereas i am stuck here in this publishing company with nothing to do, and personal growth is not an option at all.

at least, in a month or so, ill be starting law school, MAYBE i'll make it big someday. not mere fame and fortune but rather to be a legend, perhaps this also is my dream.

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

memories

I was browsing through the blogsite of my high school friend, and I saw this. This was taken when I was still in 3rd year high school; I was really into sports by then like taekwondo and softball but I wasn't able to "enhance" this, since when I started college, my priorities changed.

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

The Textbook Scandal

The Textbooks Scandal
By Kim Libarios

“Fishes live in water. They have scales as body covering and they breathe through their gills. They also have gills for breathing.”- From Science and Technology for the Modern World.

Another setback of the Philippine education system has surfaced. This time it is focused on erroneous history and science textbooks. Mind this, it is not in anyway a minor blunder.

The responsibility of the publishers as indicated by the Republic Act No. 8047 or the Book Publishing Industry Development Act indicates in:

Section 2: Book publishing industry has a significant role in national development, considering that books that are its products are instrumental in the citizenry’s intellectual, technical and cultural development- the basic social foundation for the economic and social growth of the country.

However, in the case of Asya: Noon, Ngayon, at Hinaharap, Science and Technology for the Modern World 1 & 2, and Kasaysayan ng Daigdig; the role of the publishers, its authors and of the Department of Education missed out grave errors in these books that much yet have caused more damage- the ignorance of the Filipinos.

The books


The pioneer petitioner of these erroneous books is Antonio Calipjo Go (Marian School) who paid for an ad space in the Philippine Daily Inquirer, exposing these serious mistakes with his essay “The Ninety- Five Theses of Textbook Reform”. This exposé has caused a ripple when people from the academe emerged and complained more about these erroneous books.

Asya, which is published by Vibal Publishing House, has been in circulation for thirteen years; the book is used in both private and public second year students. In its existence, together students and teachers have been learning and repeating 431 errors in its 316 pages. More than 1.147 million has been sold all over the country to public and private schools. The authors of these books namely Evelina Villoria, Ruth Fuentes, Teofista Vuvien, and Remedios Quiray (deceased) were former high officials of DepEd. In the end, DepEd admitted that indeed Asya is riddled with numerous factual, grammatical and conceptual errors, yet it has been approved three times by the same institution.

The second and third book entitled Science and Technology for the Modern World 1 and 2, published by Diwa Scholasctic Press, also acquired errors, including data such as fishes having lungs and the wrong illustration of the male reproductive system. DepEd also approved this book, and have reached in its third edition. These books were already in the erroneous section Department of Education and were subject to revision in the, surprisingly it was still used by high school students.

Lastly, Kasaysayan ng Daigdig published by SD Publications incurred 363 errors. The publisher has Vibal Publishing as its mother company, one of the biggest publishing companies of the country and also DepEd’s leading supplier of textbooks.

All four books passed the evaluation of the Instructional Materials Council Secretariat, the DepEd bureau in charge of approving the textbooks. However, despite these problems escalating, the books were not pulled out in schools, instead the publishers suggested to send a “teacher’s note” in more than 1, 654 schools that uses these books. These teacher notes would serve as the instructional guide for the mistakes of the said books.

DepEd decided to make these errors corrected, armed with eighteen professors from the University of the Philippines, the books are on its way for a much-sought facelift. These newly edited books would be released by June 2005.


Whose fault?

The publishing business has a role on developing the minds of its readers, and this comes with giving accurate facts and information. In the process of making a textbook, it takes countless editing and proofreading both done by the authors and of the part of the publisher from the start of giving the manuscript up to when the book is in its blueprint format.

This incident may boil to one point, the publishing of this book was perhaps done out of earning profit for the publishing company and receiving immense royalties in the part of the authors.

But that doesn’t stop there, there is of course the role of the Department of Education whose task is to enhance and develop the minds of the Filipino student by imparting their authority on the books that could be used in both private and public schools. In this case, DepEd abused its power and lacked on its responsibility to the citizenry.

Another point taken is on why was it just now that a teacher- Calipjo Go has exposed these kinds of controversies. This can be concluded that teachers had let these errors pass since they themselves have been using or learning the wrong details from these history and science books- that perhaps they too have used when they were younger. The parents’ liability is not excused either…

There is a need for reform of the Philippine education system and the government institutions that participates in the distribution of the books. It is without excuse that the government has caused another huge blunder and even the publishers of these books have not encourage growth but rather stagnation thus developing to a more ignorant Juan Tamad or Maria Clara. The education system of the Philippines is going to the dumps. The system is flawed, the textbooks are erroneous, the publishers are only running after the profit, and the teachers who have passed this knowledge are also nonchalant about these slip-ups. What next?

Reference:
Philippine Daily Inquirer
Philippine Star
Manila Bulletin
Business World

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The errors:
Asya

· Describing the Earth on page 178 as shaped like a coconut...“ it bulges halfway between the equator and the North Pole and flattens between the equator and the South Pole."
· The book’s introduction said Asia might not be a good place to live in, when in truth Asia was the cradle of all traditional civilizations except Egypt.
· Its sweeping generalization that Asian societies are basically the same is wrong because Asian societies differ greatly.
· Christianity was omitted as among the major religions that started in Asia.
· On page 6, the book sited the significance of volcanoes in Japan but failed to do the same in the Philippine volcanoes (example the Mt. Pinatubo eruption affected not only Central Luzon but also the rest of the world, being the biggest volcanic eruption in the 20th Century
· On page 2, it wrongly described the Asian continent as comprised of all countries in Asia and the Pacific (that would have included New Zealand, Chile, U.S. etc in Asia)
· It inaccurately described Asian geography on Page 3, 4, and 5.
· It forgot to mention among the oceans and seas of Asia, the very strategic Philippines Sea.

Science textbook:


· On page 71, “fishes…also have lungs for breathing.”
· A wrong illustration of the male anatomy on page 184
· Graphic sexual description while discussing the reproductive system on page 191 and the use of contraceptives on page 193.


Kasaysayan ng Daigdig

· That the Aztecs, Mayan and Incan civilizations were all in South America, when the Aztecs were in what is now called Mexico, the Mayans in Guatemala and the Incas in Peru and parts of neighboring countries. Mexico and Guatemala are in Central America.
· Wrong chronology of the Chinese dynasties, skipping about 700 years of history;
· That there were 15 Roman emperors, that the first one was Marcus Aurelius when the first was Augustus
· Erroneous dates and the use of C.E. instead of A.D.